Life can't always be a box of cherries

...I actually hate cherries.
...But that's not the point.

     Right.  I know that being in a relationship would be another trip to the unknown.  To be honest, I guess this might be the first serious [and by serious, I mean mature] relationship i've ever had [not online].  The thing about me is that, i'm acting very immaturely about it.
     I guess I got so caught up with the high that I get when I'm around him.  This is what I've always wanted. Mind you, I waited almost a year for this guy, and I finally have him.  Don't get me wrong.  I do love him.  I always have.  And I love him deeply as each day passes.  It's just that, this is a road uncharted.  I never actually expected that I'm gonna be in this relationship.  It has finally sunk in me that I am with this amazing guy...but I still can't believe that he's mine.  :)
     There are a lot of things that I shouldn't.  In becoming his girlfriend, I have forgotten some things.
          1. He needs his space.  
               - I know I am a clingy person.  I managed to lessen the dependency I have with him...but I'm
                 afraid that I might be getting it back.  It follows that when you're in a relationship with a person,
                 you get attached.  However, I have to remember that I can get by with or without him.  I just
                 chose to get by with him.  It shouldn't mean that I can't get by without him by my side, right?
          2. He is still the friend you had.
               - WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?  The main reason why this relationship
                  even exists is the fact that we had a good friendship!  The friendship doesn't even have to
                   terminate just because we're boyfriend and girlfriend.  XV, stop being an idiot.  Remember:
                   you are still the XV he knew: the confidante, the best friend, the side kick...only, you are also
                  now labelled as the girlfriend.
           3.  It's only gonna get tougher from here.
                - As the title states, it can't always be.  The past weeks have been wonderful.  Remember that you
                   have to get some lows before you can get the highs again.  Nothing is ever constant.  There
                   should be a healthy fluctuation of the highs and the lows.  Getting to the extremes is bad, though.
                   Always remember what you told yourself: I am willing to take all the crap he can throw at me
                   [not that he's thrown me crap].  You know how he is as a person, and I know he knows you as
                   a person.  I should adjust, just as he adjusted to my personality.  I am willing to take on the
                   tough road for him.  Honestly.

...This is my way of whining.  I feel like I have gotten some clarity now.
And I don't love him any less.

Life can't always be a box of cherries...but I guess, with him I can always have any fruit other than cherries.

TagLish

Sa bawat saya, na nadarama,
Kabayaran ng tuwa ay natural: luha.
Stories don't just end with, "Happily Ever After".
For every ending, is the beginning of a new chapter.

Immortal

The moment I catch a glimpse of your face,
Adrenaline courses, making me run and crash into you.
Everything becomes senseless,
For you are the only thing I comprehend.
The warmth of your skin feels like fire that burns,
And yet, it feels like I have forgotten how to feel pain.

We love so reckless, but who's trying to be careful?
We need not even care about salvation
For heaven is the place where we commit sin.
We dare not think about tomorrow
For we know that forever lies ahead of us.

And when we part ways
I'm earth-bound once more.
My fangs retract
While you're human once more.
And every night, I wait for that  moment:
When I see you again,
We'll transform yet again.
Go back to that place where we never die.
And be in that world, with just you and I.

After 8 months and a few days...

...yep.
It was wonderful while it lasted.

I won't get a haircut for another 8 months.  This will be the last...for now. :)

Incoherent

When I hold you in my arms, I can feel my heart swell.

     It has been a week.

     It has been wonderful...but a week will not determine what lies ahead, won't it?  No, I am not over-thinking...I feel like sometimes, I dwell too much on what's gonna happen next rather than what's happening now.  I still feel the same thing I felt a week ago.

wonder
disbelief
amazement
euphoric

     It has been wonderful.  I have so many words all up in my mind right now, however, I feel like letting it all out would seem a bit contrived.  I'm choosing my words carefully as to not overdo it.  I don't know...He's still the guy I want to write about...the guy I want to inspire me.  He is my distraction and focus - all at the same time.  He keeps me grounded even when I'm in cloud nine.  He fills the air and makes it hard to breathe.  He is a paradox...

     I am mumbling incoherently.  I'm telling you words that might not even make sense...but this is love.  Love...does it really have to make sense?  The discussion of love is an endless debate about a million things of what it is.  Need we really understand it?  Too big a concept, I believe.

     So...mi amore...why not just immerse ourselves in this ignorance.
     Let us love, for we know naught about it...uncharted waters are interesting.
     I guess I now know when they say, that:
     Ignorance is bliss.
     Who knows?  Maybe one day, we will know.
     We will discover.

To my wolf in shining armor

Sometimes, it still hits me:
I can't believe that you are with me.
It feels surreal, it feels unreal
You don't know how you make me feel.

I hold your hand and I feel sparks.
I feel higher than a flock of larks.
Because the way you hold me...
Just makes me feel free.

Meh.  Too tired, can't add no more rhymes...
But I wouldn't forget the times...
And baby, I guess it's true.
I know for a fact:
I'm in love with you.

List 1 and List 2

...these are 20 random things about me, split into two lists.  This was done for the purpose of a writer's workshop.  :)

List I.
1. I was already thinking about my list even before it was said that I needed to make my list.
2. I love getting haircuts, yet I love my hair now.
3. I tell people that I appreciate any kinds of music.
4. I hate screamo.
5. I wanna eat fried oreos.
6. I just had the guy I love to finally ask me to be his.  Needless to say, I am now his girlfriend.
7. I think the blood flow on my right leg is blocked.
8. I hate it when my leg goes numb.
9. I love music.
10. I took Information Technology.

List II.

1. I want to model.
2. I hate cameras.
3. I've never been piss drunk.
4. I am tactless.
5. My parents split up after 13 years of marriage...I was 13 at that time.
6. Now, my left is starting to go numb.
7. I wish I brought my laptop.
8. I love dogs, however, I have been told that I'm like a cat.
9. I hate gory films.
10. I wish that I was three again.


...gee.  I wonder what I could come up with using this list. <.<

Writer's Workshop [Poetry edition]

Today, I had the opportunity to be in a writer's workshop conducted in our school.  The guest speaker for the event was Sir Tom Tomlinson of the New York Writer's Workshop.  It was really amazing.  Because of the workshop, I came up with stuff.

I'll explain how this all boiled down.

We were asked to make 2 lists containing 10 random [yet true] things about ourselves.  We all created those lists.  After that, we were given the option to either use our own list or use our seatmate's list.  With that list, we were supposed to create poetry by just using the words in the lists.  We have the option to mess up the order, omit some words, but the general rule was to create a poem with 6 - 8 lines using only the words found on the list.

...because I like a challenge [and I'll feel very self-centered if I use my own list], I decided to go with my seatmate's first list.

...as of the moment, I don't have that yet.  I'll just update this post later.

Anyways...here are the two poems I created from my friend's lists.

First list:
Nervous
I sometimes feel stupid
Intimidate
A VS model for a lover
Romance
Is hard for me to imagine

Second list:
In a bank
In the future
Experience life
I think I will suck
Silly.
I don't want to study accountancy.

....hee hee hee.

I tried to fight, but can't resist.
So close your eyes, for I'm giving in.
Let me share that one first kiss.

Good night

Waking up to the feel of a chest heaving up and down,
I blink as the view becomes more clear.
Beside me, sleeping soundly, I found:
The person I very much hold dear.

That time was a perfect demonstration:
A paradox between tender and raw moments.
For both were filled with so much passion,
A mixture of heat and loving sentiments.

The way you held me made its mark.
I pull you closer, and kiss your brow.
I feel your warmth, finding solace in the dark.
I am yours: chained to you now.